To the Child in my Heart

To the Child in my Heart

Precious, tiny, sweet little one
You will always be to me
So perfect, pure and innocent
Just as you were meant to be.

We dreamed of you and your life
And all that it would be
We waited and longed for you to come
And join our family.

But now you're gone... but yet you're here
We'll sense you everywhere
You are our sorrow and our joy
There's love in every tear.

Just know our love goes deep and strong
We'll forget you never-
The child we had, but never had,
And yet will have forever.

Author, Unknown

I'm saddened that it had to be the way it is. The good lord must have known the time is not now. The lord will not give us a situation we can not handle, I will grow stronger in my life experiences. But know you will not be forgotten.

Ahhh Haaaa

So as you can see I haven't been blogging the last few days...I would wake up feeling great. Start with my toast and get stuff done around the house....then around 2 I would get so sleepy. I would lay down and maybe take like a 20 min nap. I couldnt figure out what was wrong with me....Why am I so tired?

Well I figured out why I'm sleepy.....IM PREGO!!!! YAY! I'm so excited! With that being said, its NAP TIME!!!

A little complaining

I have nothing going on, but at the same time have so much going on. My head is killing me! Please migraine go away....I miss morgan. I know I have posted that before but I really do. I miss Kevin A LOT! I also miss Rita! I love the lil town I live in....we get to walk everywhere. Tomorrows goal is to wake up early tomorrow. its so hard to do, BUT I have to do it!!!!

Start of my day

Decided to start my morning with a walk with my lil girl. We got up ate some toast together then got outside and just started walking....we probably walked for about 15 min then ran into a friend....We decided to walk over to her place and sky got to play with her two lil kids. They all had lunch together then it was time to take Sky to school...She is going to be wiped out by the time shes done at school....but the day wont be over, then it will be time to walk to the post office and see if the package from daddy came in. Tonight we have a dinner invite to go have mexican food...yummy! Everything seems to working out just right today.

Missing Daddy

Sky & I have been up in Illinois now for 10 days without my other half. Before I left Mississippi I cried for days because I knew how much I would miss him. Its not quit as hard as I thought it was going to be only because I have Skyler and both dogs so they keep me busy, but it is hard emotionally. I miss having adult conversation just about anything. I miss hearing the door open and listening to Sky yell "Daddy" and the dogs going crazy when he walks in from work. Kev is my other half and he truly does complete me. I have no idea what I would do without him....Note To Kevin: Your stuck with me FOREVER! :D

Maurices

I want these!!!

I want these!!!

I want these!!!

Maybe in a couple weeks I can start slowly purchasing a couple things here and there. . .One of my fav places to shop is Maurices, and the best thing is that there is a Maurices Outlet 15 min down the road from me. . .Kevin should be very very concerned ;)

Hope your all having a happy Tuesday

Rain

Today has been a lovely relaxing day. I got up kind of late this morning. Got sky ready for school and just hung out while she was in school. Went to go pick her up and it was PORING!!! I was soaking wet by the time sky and I got home. It was fun though.

In the AM

Started my day off with my fav....Iced Coffee & Toast along with a chapter of "Hunger Games"

Italian Chicken Salad

I had to go out to the grocery store which is like 15 min away....and to some thats not to far but it is when I'm use to going 3 min down the road to get EVERYTHING! I hate to say it but I kind of miss being near a walmart. I'm even contimplating at this point to join Sam's Club....which in my house is 2 four letter words. We are a costco family! But anyways, Sky and I had to go out to the market to get bread. No bread = no pb&j, and well that would be a terrible day for Sky. 

When I got home I couldnt figure out what I wanted so I started putting the groceries away and realized that I had everything in order to make a super yummy salad. So heres what I put together

My version of an Italian Chicken Salad

1 half a head of iceberg lettuce or 1 head romaine lettuce

1 cup diced prepared and cooled chicken

1/2 large tomato

2 hard boiled eggs

1/2 a large cucumber

Your choice of Italian Dressing

Chop everything up and throw it in a bowl 

&

Yay to a delicious Salad

Enjoy

Apple Dumpling Festival

Today I woke up to Skyler and Sierra playing in the living room. 

Our cute puppy Sierra

I heard the phone ring and she was talking to "Grandma with the stairs". I noticed very quickly that Sky was back to her old self and had gotten rid of that icky sickness. We got ourselves ready for the day and went down to main street to the Apple Dumpling Festival. Its a festival that they have yearly here in Atwood IL. When you go down there you can't leave without one of those yummy apple dumpling desserts. 

mmmmm

After we got our dessert we went back down to main street and got ready for the parade. We ran into a new friend Bonnie so we sat with her during the parade. All the people that are in the parade throw candy to the kids and its a lot of fun!! Here are some of the pictures I got of the parade.

Sky with her fishing pole and fish

this reminded me of Kev because of the eagle

She was so excited about the trackers

Another one for Kevin

Mommy & Sky

She loved the horses

Sky & Bonnie

I think we are going to head back up to Main St. I guess they have a car show with a whole bunch of old cars. Maybe I will post a couple pictures of that if I find any cool cars. 

Still missing Kevin like crazy as well as my bestie Morgan....I found these pics and thought I would share them with you.

xoxo Missing You xoxo

mmmm missing the bbq nachos

Digital Scrapbooking

If anyone enjoys scrapbooking but has a hard time completing their projects I would highly recommend www.heritagemakers.com. I have already made 4 books with this project being my 5th. Take a look and tell me what you think....Have a blessed weekend!

Front Cover of my book....check out the link below to see the whole project

http://www.heritagemakers.com/projectBrowserStandAlone.cfm?projectID=1538786&productId=5&sponsorID=211768

Yummy and Easy to make Chicken Salad

I was cleaning out the pantry and found 2 cans of shredded chicken and they needed to be used or they were going to go bad. So I decided that I would make some chicken salad. I've never made it before and it turned out pretty well considering I used whatever I had in my fridge.

2 cans chicken
3 celery sticks
2 hard boiled eggs
1/2 cup chopped walnuts (or almonds)
1 cup mayo
salt & pepper to taste
diced up grapes (optional)

I chopped everything up put it in a bowl and mixed. SO SUPER EASY!

I was going to put a pic of the finish product but to be honest it didn't photo well. It was mighty tasty though!

A new chapter

I can't figure out what I need to do inorder to keep blogging on a daily basis. I always say when I blog that I enjoy the time spent just escaping into my own but then it takes me FOREVER to continue....

I have had SOOO many changes in my life in the last couple of months. For the first time in years I can say that everything is falling into place just the way that I think they should. I'm so happy in my marriage and I just thank the lord that I have such an amazing husband by my side. My daughter needless to say is amazing! 

So in the last couple of months my husband and I have decided to take on a new adventure with my parents. We decided to leave the state Mississippi and move to the state of Illinois. We wanted to move to a small town and open our own business. Skyler would start pre-school  when we moved and all would be the way we had always hoped for.

About 2 weeks ago I got a call from Skylers school saying that there was a spot for her. If I wanted her to attend that I would have to start her on the following tuesday which was only 7 days away from when I received that phone call. So at that point I started packing up as much as I could for sky, our 2 dogs and I. I moved 6-7 hours away from my home in Mississippi and I moved all of us in my 2011 Jetta. What a mission. It was cramped to say the least but it all went well.

Skyler started school on Wed and she absolutely LOVED it!!! She enjoyed her teacher and all her new friends. She came home with a happy face sticker which means she stayed on a green card (I guess that means she was a good girl all day). After she got out of school we went over and played at Mrs. Sams house with a whole bunch a little kids. Then we had a dinner invite at our neighbors house and that was a GREAT time. We came home and sky said she wasn't feeling so good so she went and laid down....from that point the stomach virus started :( It was terrible. Today is friday and she didnt go to school yesterday or today. Poor thing!!! She seems to be doing better today but hopefully she will continue to do better tomorrow.

Oh ya and I already locked myself out of the house. I had to have 2 different guys help me get back into the house where Skyler was so I thought asleep in bed. Anyways it all worked out and I got back in. :D  Embarrassing!!!

Today I got all our clothes hung up and organized in our closet so that was a huge accomplishment. Now I need to start on the kitchen pantry so I can put my groceries away. 

Our Temporary Home

 

Sky's first day of Pre-School

I have to say the hardest thing about this entire adventure is missing some of my besties and my HUBBY! Its sooooo hard to be away from everyone. I have made some new friends here and they all have kids around Sky's age so that part is good. I miss Morgan and Rita lots. Sky tells me everyday how much she misses her daddy and that he is taking a long time to get here :(  I get to see Rita in a couple weeks I think and my hubby too....We are celebrating our 5 year wedding anniversary on September 9th YAY....GO US!!! Love you babe!!!

My new thing...

I have been working out 4-5 days a week

I have been eating really well....like really well

I have lost 18 lbs since the middle of Jan.

2 weeks ago Sky got sick, then Kev and I followed as of Sunday night

Woke up Monday feeling terrible.

Monday, didn't end up going to the gym

Since not going to the gym and having a visit 

from Aunt Flow I have been eating TERRIBLE!

I haven't had a visit from her in 4 years 

and it was no day at the park to say the least...

When I started to go to the gym and eating better 

I cut out coffee....COMPLETELY :(

It was terrible, Migraine for 3 days...

I feel so much better not drinking it though

I found out that Green Tea is good

for people that have liver disease

Which I have....So now I am on a tea kick.

Weird since my bestie is now on a tea thing as well

Gotta love her <3

My Birthday is coming up.

I have decided to embrace my birthday 

instead of cringe at the age I am going to be

For so long I was sad that I was getting older

But I really am happy with who I am 

and who I have become

I know I think I'm getting old now but when I'm 40

I am going to feel like I didn't enjoy my young years 

because I thought I was old when I wasn't

A couple years ago my 

Aunt introduced Teavana to my Dad.

I loved it then but couldn't ever think about 

spending that kind of money on tea

I think I want to invest in a nice

tea steeper and get some loose tea leaves

tiramisu

Today was the first day Kevin and I had off from working out since we started. I didn't eat ALL day which I didn't do on purpose, I was just busy and forgot to eat. Then when I did eat I had anticipated eating dinner soon so I had top Roman. BAD IDEA. Super unhealthy and WAY to much sodium. Then I decided to go to Fresh Market and what did I do? I got a freakin tiramisu  slice of cake....uggggg, REALLY!?!?! I had never had tiramisu  before and I just had to have it.....SO BAD! But it was soooo GOOD!
After that little adventure I came home and made up dinner. I made a pot roast, broccoli and cheese and garlic mash potatoes. I wasn't going to eat the mash potatoes but I did. Today was so terrible for my eating but over all it was a good day with some friends and family.
Tomorrow is another day off from the gym but I will be strickly back to eating healthy because I need to make up for how bad I was today....I feel soo guilty.

Eat better tomorrow and work my butt off at the gym for the next 3 days to burn off that tiramisu .

Gym Day 3

I woke up today well rested. As soon as Kevin and I said good morning to each other baby girl walked in and crawled into bed with us. We all hung out for a couple minutes...its a great way to start the morning. Then we got ready and headed out for the gym. Unlike yesterday I was super motivated to go. I got there and got to it. When I was about 25 min in on the elliptical I wanted to give up so bad but I started talking crap to myself and saying JUST DO IT! Hahahaha I didn't think about this but I was listening to Nike work out music routine. Anyways, I got done at 35 min and then did a 10 min cool down. My goal is to be able to work out for an hour but I know I wont get there for another couple of weeks. I came home and had 2 boiled eggs, 2 pieces of bacon and 2 sausage links. I am trying to stay with a high protein and low carb. It worked for me a couple years ago so I'm sticking with it. As for the day a head, I have plans to have coffee with Morgan, hang out with a new friend then have play date with another one of my friends for Skyler and my friends son. Yay for a busy day!

Todays Goal: Get Skylers room clean, clean my bathroom and maintain what is already clean :D

The New Year

I haven't been blogging for awhile as you can see. I was at the gym this morning and I was just wishing someone could understand how miserable I was while working out. I hate mornings, I really don't enjoy working out and I was completely nauseous. When I went yesterday I felt great. I was glad to be getting it over and done with and had a great day following my work out. But today was completely different. I woke up and just couldn't seem to get myself going. So I decided to eat a protein bar. BAD idea! The entire time I just knew I was going to yack in front of everyone. After only 10 minutes I had to call it quits. I felt so guilty. I felt like I gave up. But I knew that I couldn't have gone any longer. I left the gym, came home and slept for a couple hours. Its 1 am now and I have to make sure I get up at 8 so I can get my morning going and get to the gym for day 3. 

On a good note, my home looks great. Its clean and as organized as its going to get     : )