Todays a GOOD day....

Good Afternoon Everyone,

Not to much going on around here today.

Just relaxing with the family.

Getting ready to take my Little Sky Bug to get cupcakes.

I can't wait for that photo opportunity.

Excited for this evening since Kevin doesn't work in

the early AM tomorrow...we can actually spend some time together :D

Going to ATTEMPT to go to the Farmers Market tomorrow.

Its SO hard to wake up early to go. I am a night owl for sure.

I love to be up all night and sleep ALL day...

To bad its not a very productive way to live.

I have missed my Karly Babe so much, its crazy to get to know her as a woman.

Shes always been my baby sister, we are almost 10 years apart.

With me moving away we don't get to spend to much time together.

Shes an amazing young lady and I am extremely proud of her.

She should be proud of the person she has become.

Love you sis!

The fear of being alone....

I have gotten to a point in my life where I am not comfortable being out by myself. I have truly forgotten what its like to just go and do whatever without having someone with me. I have major anxiety issues and my brain goes at 100 miles an hour. I get scared if I'm out and the sun goes down. What if someone hurts me, what if I can't protect my daughter. Are these thoughts normal? And for that matter what in the heck is "Normal"? I watch this video and it makes me sad...I wish I was comfortable with myself, for me to only be with me.

Pencil :D

So my sis Karly told me about a website www.stumbleupon.com and its super fun. A way to find a ton of websites that you could be interested in, that you might not have stumbled upon :P While stumbling I came across this cool website that I would like to share...

http://oddstuffmagazine.com/ 

Photos I found from this website....Dalton Ghetti is the creator of these amazing pieces of art. All his sculptures are made out of single pencils.

Alphabet

This one is my favorite

 There are so many other things to read on this website but I was in awe when I saw these photos....ENJOY!!!

Choices

I have been wanting to blog about SO many things lately but for some reason I cant get myself to sit down and concentrate on what it is that I want to share with all of you...I have been slammed with so many things going on in my life, I think I'm on over load. I don't enjoy being a negative person, I always try to find a way to be positive but I'm needing to express how I'm truly feeling....If you ignore the truth then aren't you choosing to live a lie?

As you may know from my previous postings I lost my Father In Law in March. My husbands job is secure but not at all what we were expecting it to be....we're on a temporary hold on the income we were expecting. That's an over whelming stress in itself. I married my husband 10 months into our relationship and we are paying the price for that decision now...I had no idea marriage was so much work. I love my husband, he has a lot of qualities that I respect, and there's other qualities he has that make me want to hit him over the head with a frying pan :D I'm sure I'm a pain in the ass to deal with (at times) as well though. My parents made it look so easy...props to you both on that one....I love you! Both my parents told me to not get a dog....but I wanted a puppy. So I got one, his name is Jax.

I have to be completely honest, that dog is a pain in my butt but he makes me so happy. He loves me everyday and I love him back. I have no business having a dog but I do, and I already have a kitty kitty meow meow....Gracie. Kevin cant stand her but oh well, shes a good kitty. I love her too.

(Please remember I have a 3 year old also) My life is BUSY!!! Lots of love in the house though ;) The other day, I posted that my car broke down...that's not fixed yet. I have been going to the doctors a lot and I finally found out that my hormone levels are off. I'm happy to be on the road of feeling better but I just see it as another expense. I have a habit of letting myself go so I can make sure everyone else is taken care of :( My vacuum just quit working the other day. So I guess in the big picture most of my issues are finances....I think I'm gonna look into getting a job...I will keep you posted. I know we will be ok, my husband and I both have fantastic family and we are very thankful to have so many great friends in our lives. We will get through this!!


Some of my goals....

Start Eating Better

Start Working out and get my extra weight off

Go to school for Medical Billing

Own a home in Colorado

A fantastic camera, an all time dream hobby of mine

A Mac Laptop...The pink is a little plus :D

I will make something of myself....I promise me that!!!

Friday the 13th

Well in the past the number 13 has been my
Favorite / Lucky number. My sister mentioned to me today that it was Friday the 13th and I replied with "Doesn't bother me 13 is my good day" With that said my sis Karly, my dear friend Morgan and I decided to go get some DELICIOUS cupcakes from Ann Olivia's Sweet Shop in Hernando, MS. www.annolivias.com Its the home of the glittered cupcake. I have to say, the cupcakes were FANTASTIC!!! Boston Cream and Cheesecake were my personal favorite.  Not only were the cupcakes great but the owners and employees there were sincerely some of the friendliest and nicest people I have met. I wish the best for them. I will return just for the simple fact I enjoy spending time there. They make me SMILE!!!
(The people and the cupcakes) :D

We ran into a goodwill and decided we would go in...Nothing else to do, WHY NOT? Us 3 girls browsing around looking at  hideous shoes and some terrible pieces of clothing that NO one should ever wear. Some of the funny items we found....

I love Roosters

Morgan tried this one on....AWESOME!!!

But  I  did  end  up  finding 

a  new  skirt  that  I  really  like.

I  got  it  for  $4.00. 

Can  you  believe  that?

I'm all  about  a  bargain  but  wow! 
I  like  a  price  tag  of  $4.

Us girls decide to get back home relax and just hang out for a little bit before we go out tonight...We're in the car laughing, talking about clothes and cupcakes, making fun of each other. Our drive was great with great view of the country side. When all of a sudden my car makes a strange noice, battery light comes on and I instantly say awwww man this is sucky...oh well I guess I will have to get it checked out. I start to break for a stop sign ahead and now I realize my power steering is off....WHAT? I stop at the stop sign, my car is off...hmmmm how did that happen? So I go to start my car......Uhhhhhh NO ITS DEAD!!!! Wont start, wont do anything? What am I supposed to do? 3 Girls and we know NOTHING about cars!!!! We're STUCK!!! So we get out of the car and it was 118 degrees outside....SERIOUSLY?? Uggg We're sweating in a matter of minutes, 3 different guys try to help and all 3 guys have different ideas of whats wrong with my car....I DON'T CARE....get my girls, me and my car home! I call my husband and my dad. I finally figure out how AAA works and we get rescued 2 hours later. I have more pictures to post up of this wonderful day but here are a couple of them...

We all got home safely, we're all tired and my poor car is broken...Positive thing, sitting in 118 weather for 2 hours and sweating like that, I had to have lost some weight right? :D

I came across Katie Melua at Borders one day and I love her music <3

Life is hard, Life is challenging. More challenging then I thought that I could ever bare. On the same note life is great and beautiful. I have some hard choices to make here in the next year or so. Choices that will change my life drastically. Either for the better or the worst. I know as time goes on, the answers will be more clear. I have a habit of ALWAYS worrying about others before I worry about myself. But now I have a baby girl that my choices will effect, so now more than ever I have to make sure I do whats right. Is it bad to make choices with your heart?

Today, I had a pretty relaxing day. 

I played with my little Sky Bug, her laughter makes my day complete. 

Shes such an amazing little girl. 

We were supposed to go to church together 

but she decided she wanted to hang out with her Daddy instead.

It worked out nice for me though, 

I got to have a little Mommy time.  

My dear friends Morgan & Zach started going to church with me, 

its a breath of fresh air to have such supportive friends. 

We went and played tennis tonight 

around 9:00PM and it was around 90 degrees outside...

it was HOT and we were sweaty but it was a good time.

Though times are tough there are

always things I find to smile about... 

The Beautiful Outdoors

My Darling Daughter

Both Combined = Lovely Memories

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

BH Cosmetics is a company that I found not to long ago and I absolutely LOVE them. I have always had a love for make-up but mostly eye shadows. I love to blend colors and try new things.

This is a shimmer blue blending into a deep purple and blending out to a soft ivory.

 

“For God has said, I will never fail you. I will never forsake you.‟
That is why we can say with confidence, The Lord is my helper, so I will not be afraid.” 

Hebrews 13: 5-6 (NLT)