Chai Tea Miso and Christmas

So at Starbucks AGAIN with the bestie. Thanks to my Mom I can now have a chai tea at starbucks with low calories. Order a Chai Tea Miso (chai tea bags) with non fat milk, 1 pump of sugar free vanilla and 1 equal (splenda if you prefer). Its not exactly the same but for not taking in 230 calories its pretty darn good :D

Also its the Month of December which means that I am now obsessed with Christmas. The season, the decorations, the drinks, the movies and music. I listen to Christmas music at home in the car and most places have it on when you go shopping. I love Christmas movies and it has been even more fun to watch them this year now that Skyler is 3. Kevin has been a joy to be around more too so its nice to spend the time together as a family and create all these memories together. With all that being said these are some of the Christmas movies we have watched already.

Passion for Photography

There are always two people in every picture: the photographer and the viewer.

Ansel Adams

The joy of doing Nothing

Today was such a lazy day....I did NOTHING all day!!! I wanted to see my bestie but both her and I were having LAZY days. I wanted to go over to her place so we could do NOTHING together but I didn't even have the energy to get over to her place.

My hubby had the day off and we just sat around and were lazy together. To be honest it was kind of nice. We watched a couple of episodes of some ghost show...its always entertaining. Then Kev made it a point to get down to Blockbuster so we could rent the Disney Christmas Carol with Jim Carey. I enjoyed it except it was kind of dark. Well I guess in a sense that movie is kind of creepy. Ghost of the past, present and future. It was kind of scary for Sky but she was a trooper and sat through it. Sky fell asleep on my lap which is always a great Mommy feeling.

Tomorrow I will be back to the everyday things...Its starting to get cold outside and its going to be difficult to get Sky out of the house. I need to start going to the gym. Its has become real apparent that Kevin isn't going to motivate me to get to the gym so I'm on my own. What I need to do is get up in the AM and get Sky ready and get to the gym by 9-10 am. They have a fun class for preschoolers from 9-11 and it would be great for her as well as for me. I need to get to Costco tomorrow since I have ran out of the basics, you know like milk and eggs. Then after grocery shopping I am on a mission to get this house back in order. Its not that bad but for some reason even when a couple of things are out of place lately the house looks a wreck.

Well I didn't know what to post about so I just decided to get on here and type....I know its kind of all over the place and kind of random but once you get to know me you realize thats just how I am. :D

Weather tonight was thunderstormy. I don't know if thats a word but I like it. 

Kevin and I love thunderstorms so it made our night wonderful.

Listening to

I'm back with some holiday cheer

Its that time a year. The time where everyone seems a little bit more joyful. Christmas trees are up, Christmas lights twinkle in the windows. The smell of pine and evergreen fill my home. Baking sweet cookies for my baby girl and hubby as well as for friends. The season of giving. I'm planning on cooking a big holiday dinner today for my family. I didn't cook for thanksgiving since we were invited to a friends home but there's nothing better than thanksgiving left overs. I will cook today and have the left overs tomorrow.

Happy Holidays from my home to yours.

 I will be posting my holiday photos soon

Never A Shopper

Good Morning

Last night I went to my besties favorite store Anthropologie. I never had the desire to go because I knew the clothes there are WAY out of my budget. So last night was an opportunity to hang out with Morgan, so I went. I told her I wasn't going to allow myself to like anything in there.....WRONG!!! Of course I loved the stuff in there...I should have listened to myself and not went. haha

Now there's a couple things at Anthropologie that I love...

  

I also came across a website today www.modcloth.com. Where I found myself looking and looking and looking at things that I love!!! Looks like I better start figuring out a way to make some extra money so I can start shopping :)  Here's a few things I love from Mod Cloth.

 

I hope you all have a great day...

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My every day battles

 Hello All! 

I haven't blogged in awhile. I have been under the weather for about a week and well sometimes I struggle with what I want to share with all of you. Not that there's things I don't want to share but the lack of things to share...Does that make since?

I have been going through a lot emotionally lately. I found out that my hormones are off balance. My Dr. decided to do a test run and give me less hormones than I was originally getting and I think I need to get back to the higher dosage. Not that I'm an expert but I felt better when I was getting more. I have also been taking 50,000 IU's of vitamin D weekly. I called my Dr. office about 2 weeks ago and they told me to stop taking my vitamin D do to my levels being ok. I got a phone call yesterday from the Dr. office and they tell me my vitamin levels are "extremely" low. I started taking my vitamins yesterday and I have to tell you, I feel a world of difference. 

So other than medical reasons for me to be off balance I have emotional issues. I'm obsessed with food which means I love to eat! I eat when I'm hungry, snacky, sad, happy, celebrating, crying, bored, lonely, and any other feeling you get. I was watching Dr. Phil and there was a woman on his show that was talking about her eating and how she felt so unattractive to her husband. She felt unattractive to herself. Her self esteem had diminished. She would eat in private so there would be zero judgment in concern to what she would eat. She weighs exactly what I weigh and I feel exactly like her, and all I could do was cry.

Kevin and I are looking into joining the YMCA. I need him to motivate me (basically kick me out the house) and get me going to the gym. The YMCA has a great child care and tons of things to offer my daughter and that alone is reason enough for the membership in my eyes. 

I'm looking forward to starting this process. I'm going to attempt to journal about my experience. Probably about how I'm feeling, my struggles, my strengths and I will TRY to get the courage to do the before and after photos. I just hope I don't let myself down.

I really want to be thin. I want clothes to look cute on me, I want to look the way I did when I met Kevin, and most of all I want to feel good about ME. Not that you have to be thin to feel those things but for me personally, that's what I need. I know being thin wont fix my problems its just a major problem in my eyes that I can fix. I will battle those other issues in other ways :D

I was going to write about some other things but I will save them for a later time....I took 2 sleeping pills and I am feeling very very sleepy....Good Night!

I hope your all doing well. Anyone want to join me on this working out and eating better quest?

Almost Autumn

I am at Starbucks with MORGAN

I am enjoying my Iced Green Tea

But I kind of wish I would have gotten 

a hot coffe, or a hot chai or even a hot tea

When I was getting ready today

I was wishing it was cool outside.

I miss wearing sweaters

I want to need to wear cute warm clothes

 Autumn is almost here

Its by far my favorite season

Watching the leaves change

The chilly days you can wrap yourself up in a blanket

Coffee in the morning to warm you up

to enjoy the crisp clean morning air

Bake some yummy pumpkin bread

Most of all I am looking forward to

capturing beautiful photos within the Autumn Season.

Hopefully before long I will have some of my own photos to show to all of you

Whats your favorite season?

Have a happy Friday and a wonderful weekend :D